I saw you at the mall a few days ago, and as we walked past each other – only inches apart – I wondered if you even recognized me? Did you notice my little boys? Did you realize that it was my marriage, my family, that you helped to destroy?
The thought of you has kept me awake night after night since I discovered that you really do exist, and I have struggled over what I would say to you if I ever had the chance. But basically it boils down to one small phrase: I forgive you.
There, I said it. Forgiveness is not a gift that I give to you, but a gift that I give to myself. I am releasing all of the heartache, loss, and pain that you have caused. As tears stream down my face, I am choosing to forgive you for all that you have done to me and my family. My whole world came crashing down that day in November, and it hasn’t been the same since. Everything that I thought to be true in my marriage was shown to be a lie. Life will never again be the same for me and my precious little ones, but somehow I know that my faith in my Heavenly Father will get us through this nightmare. Jeremiah 29:11 says, “For I know the plans I have for you”, declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” I know that He saw this coming, and even though I don’t know why He allowed it to happen, I know that He will continue to care for me and my boys. He will be faithful to heal the wounds that you and my husband inflicted on us, and He will help me on this path of forgiveness and healing that I have chosen. He has forgiven me of so much, so I know that He will help me to continue to find love and forgiveness toward you both.
As hard as it is, I will continue to keep you in my prayers. I pray that you will never have to feel the kind of hurt that I am going through right now. I would never wish this intense pain, this broken and bleeding heart, on anyone…not even you.
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